Fyrescape: It never stopped!
So, this is my first blog in...well a long time!
I'll be honest, I've been taking a break. A very long break, from exercising that is. It's been a few months since I've been steady at it. Funny story, a few months back, probably around January I believe it was, I was outside at night just walking around and lost in pretty deep thought. I realized that this whole journey that I've named 'Fyrescape', it all started on April 29, 2014. I used to think that it started and ended on April 28, 2015 then the next day, Fyrescape 2 started. Then 3, 4 and so on. Well actually I only wanted 1, 2, and 3. But, that seemed to really mess with me. It turns out I was a really over organized person. It's like I had to make sense of everything in a organized way. I realized that I couldn't do things unless I did it in a certain order and if I did not do it in that order, I would just screw up and think that I failed. That was nonsense. So I made these blogs and for that first year of Fyrescape, I kept it up really good. My first blog was my main one and should've been my ONLY one, but then I made another blog, Fyrescape 2. That one was good up until I believe November, or so. Then my life started to get busy and complicated. I wasn't able to keep up with my blogs daily like I had wanted. One day would pass, then the next, pretty soon it was 2 weeks past and I'd be sitting in my chair tryna figure out what I did ten days ago and write it down in my blog. That just really screwed up my thinking because eventually, it started making me lazy and once that laziness set it, I convinced myself to STOP exercising since I didn't keep up with the everyday order. I'd tell myself, "you didn't make it everyday this time, you already messed up, so why not wait until April 29 of next year then you can start all over again" and that's how I messed up.
Well, in all my weirdo mistakes there's one thing I did also notice! The lifestyle I started during Fyrescape year one in 2014, all the changes I made to make myself a better, healthier person, they never stopped. I have been sticking to every change I made then and I've never stopped. My eating habits have been very controlled. There are things I've stopped eating that I still don't eat. The only thing that I have done lately that I stopped then is eating fast food on occasion. Back then, I only allowed myself either Subway or Arby's for fast food. That's about the only thing different, oh and the daily exercise, but everything else including making myself a better person, that has never stopped. Everyday I have been trying so hard to keep up with my better lifestyle and using everyday to try and change things about myself that I've wanted to for a long time. So as for 'Fyrescape', that's what it's always been about. Not just getting healthy physically, but mentally, spiritually, and just becoming and all-round better person and that's what I've been doing everyday. I've changed many things about myself in the last year. I think I needed this break from exercising to really see that, so that in itself (the non-exercising days) was all part of it.
Right now, I know that my journey has never stopped. This whole 'Fyrescape 2' and so on nonsense, has really been completely Unnecessary!!! Fyrescape started on April 29, 2014 and it has NEVER STOPPED SINCE. Right now, it's March 31, 2017. Fyrescape has been going on for almost 3 whole years now and in that time, I've truly become a much better person and I've realized so many things, learned many things, accomplished new and Awesome goals. Goals that I've had for the last twelve years, I finally did them, such as taking my best friend to the ocean. I had been promising her that I'd take her since 2005. Every year we'd talk about it until soon that's all it was, talk. She would never take it serious. In 2015, that's when it hit me, either do it or stop talking! So I did it!!!!! I planned it out, then took her in August 2015. She had the time of her life. I took her to Sea World in San Diego. She saw the ocean for the first time in her life and it really changed her for the best. Now, like me, she's drawn to it. I took her up to LA and she saw the whole west coast during that drive, then we went to Universal Studios where I bought her a VIP pass and she got to ride every ride and see every attraction, no lines. To this day, she still talks about it and how much she misses it, but also how Awesome it was and that she was so very glad to finally have done it. That was a HUGE GOAL and a VERY BIG ACCOMPLISHMENT for Fyrescape. I'd finally followed thru with that amazing promise I made all those years ago. I also started working again and I've pushed Lisa (my best friend) to do many things. I lost a lot of weight. I've made different choices and accomplished many things both minor and major. Fyrescape was a major turning point in my life. There was no part 2, or part 3 nonsense. It's all just been One!! It started in 2014 and it's never stopped.
Today, I'm going to start my exercising again. Planning on walking my 3 miles this morning. My dogs, Cody and Cooper, have missed it. I usually let them loose to run off on their own but I think they loved going out there with me and Lisa. Today is Lisa's day off. She's started working at her old job. Her Nursing School stint did not go good. She overloaded herself and it got so bad for her that she just pulled out. She withdrew in October of last year. Her grades were falling bad and she couldn't seem to learn the things she needed. She also had very horrible instructors who were not concerned with the students and more focused on their own goals. They each were going for a higher degree of nursing so they'd be studying in class when they were supposed to be teaching and helping the students learn the material. They didn't do that. So as many times as Lisa tried to ask for help because she was failing, the only thing they had to say, or rather ask, was "what do YOU think you did wrong? Figure that out, then fix it." That's it!! That was their huge wisdom and help. They wouldn't sit down with her and help her figure out what she was doing wrong, then help her fix it, like they're supposed to do. So anyway, she ended up just withdrawing. Now, she's gotta wait 2 years before she can go back, which she fully intends on doing. So right now she's playing the waiting game. Took her some time to cope with what she did, but I have fully supported her and told her she needed a break. She's been going to college for 4 years straight and then she gets into Nursing School on her first attempt and dove right into it with no break. She just completely wore herself out mentally. I told her that this break she's having now, she truly needed it and it's been doing great for her. She got her old job back and has made so many friends. Right now she's completely in love with some guy from her work, but dealing with that because they're not dating. She's just really into him but he doesn't seem to feel the same way about her. So she's dealing with that now, but as for everything else, she's much happier. She doesn't have to come home and hit the books. Now she comes home, cooks some food and lays on the couch to watch her shows. She's started to exercise again and she's a much happier person. She's building herself back up to hit Nursing School again when the time is right. That's what 'Fyrescape' has always been about. Making yourself better, despite all the shortcomings in life. She's been on the journey just as I have. So we have never stopped and to this day, it's just been getting better and better with each passing day.
So in closing, for me this blog will help me. I've been wanting to open it back up and get back to writing. I'm starting to exercise today, but this time I don't think I'll be keeping a daily blog of everything I do. That's just been too much hassle. On occasion I'll write, but it'll probably be on my original 'Fyrescape' blog. I'm going to continue on there and just keep going. This blog here is for my personal thoughts and things I'd love to record from the day's happenings, whichever day that may be. So many things happen in my everyday that I'd love to keep a record of and what better way to do that then with a blog. Anyway, it's been Awesome and the Journey to Excellence continues everyday.
-Fyre 3/31/2017
I'll be honest, I've been taking a break. A very long break, from exercising that is. It's been a few months since I've been steady at it. Funny story, a few months back, probably around January I believe it was, I was outside at night just walking around and lost in pretty deep thought. I realized that this whole journey that I've named 'Fyrescape', it all started on April 29, 2014. I used to think that it started and ended on April 28, 2015 then the next day, Fyrescape 2 started. Then 3, 4 and so on. Well actually I only wanted 1, 2, and 3. But, that seemed to really mess with me. It turns out I was a really over organized person. It's like I had to make sense of everything in a organized way. I realized that I couldn't do things unless I did it in a certain order and if I did not do it in that order, I would just screw up and think that I failed. That was nonsense. So I made these blogs and for that first year of Fyrescape, I kept it up really good. My first blog was my main one and should've been my ONLY one, but then I made another blog, Fyrescape 2. That one was good up until I believe November, or so. Then my life started to get busy and complicated. I wasn't able to keep up with my blogs daily like I had wanted. One day would pass, then the next, pretty soon it was 2 weeks past and I'd be sitting in my chair tryna figure out what I did ten days ago and write it down in my blog. That just really screwed up my thinking because eventually, it started making me lazy and once that laziness set it, I convinced myself to STOP exercising since I didn't keep up with the everyday order. I'd tell myself, "you didn't make it everyday this time, you already messed up, so why not wait until April 29 of next year then you can start all over again" and that's how I messed up.
Well, in all my weirdo mistakes there's one thing I did also notice! The lifestyle I started during Fyrescape year one in 2014, all the changes I made to make myself a better, healthier person, they never stopped. I have been sticking to every change I made then and I've never stopped. My eating habits have been very controlled. There are things I've stopped eating that I still don't eat. The only thing that I have done lately that I stopped then is eating fast food on occasion. Back then, I only allowed myself either Subway or Arby's for fast food. That's about the only thing different, oh and the daily exercise, but everything else including making myself a better person, that has never stopped. Everyday I have been trying so hard to keep up with my better lifestyle and using everyday to try and change things about myself that I've wanted to for a long time. So as for 'Fyrescape', that's what it's always been about. Not just getting healthy physically, but mentally, spiritually, and just becoming and all-round better person and that's what I've been doing everyday. I've changed many things about myself in the last year. I think I needed this break from exercising to really see that, so that in itself (the non-exercising days) was all part of it.
Right now, I know that my journey has never stopped. This whole 'Fyrescape 2' and so on nonsense, has really been completely Unnecessary!!! Fyrescape started on April 29, 2014 and it has NEVER STOPPED SINCE. Right now, it's March 31, 2017. Fyrescape has been going on for almost 3 whole years now and in that time, I've truly become a much better person and I've realized so many things, learned many things, accomplished new and Awesome goals. Goals that I've had for the last twelve years, I finally did them, such as taking my best friend to the ocean. I had been promising her that I'd take her since 2005. Every year we'd talk about it until soon that's all it was, talk. She would never take it serious. In 2015, that's when it hit me, either do it or stop talking! So I did it!!!!! I planned it out, then took her in August 2015. She had the time of her life. I took her to Sea World in San Diego. She saw the ocean for the first time in her life and it really changed her for the best. Now, like me, she's drawn to it. I took her up to LA and she saw the whole west coast during that drive, then we went to Universal Studios where I bought her a VIP pass and she got to ride every ride and see every attraction, no lines. To this day, she still talks about it and how much she misses it, but also how Awesome it was and that she was so very glad to finally have done it. That was a HUGE GOAL and a VERY BIG ACCOMPLISHMENT for Fyrescape. I'd finally followed thru with that amazing promise I made all those years ago. I also started working again and I've pushed Lisa (my best friend) to do many things. I lost a lot of weight. I've made different choices and accomplished many things both minor and major. Fyrescape was a major turning point in my life. There was no part 2, or part 3 nonsense. It's all just been One!! It started in 2014 and it's never stopped.
Today, I'm going to start my exercising again. Planning on walking my 3 miles this morning. My dogs, Cody and Cooper, have missed it. I usually let them loose to run off on their own but I think they loved going out there with me and Lisa. Today is Lisa's day off. She's started working at her old job. Her Nursing School stint did not go good. She overloaded herself and it got so bad for her that she just pulled out. She withdrew in October of last year. Her grades were falling bad and she couldn't seem to learn the things she needed. She also had very horrible instructors who were not concerned with the students and more focused on their own goals. They each were going for a higher degree of nursing so they'd be studying in class when they were supposed to be teaching and helping the students learn the material. They didn't do that. So as many times as Lisa tried to ask for help because she was failing, the only thing they had to say, or rather ask, was "what do YOU think you did wrong? Figure that out, then fix it." That's it!! That was their huge wisdom and help. They wouldn't sit down with her and help her figure out what she was doing wrong, then help her fix it, like they're supposed to do. So anyway, she ended up just withdrawing. Now, she's gotta wait 2 years before she can go back, which she fully intends on doing. So right now she's playing the waiting game. Took her some time to cope with what she did, but I have fully supported her and told her she needed a break. She's been going to college for 4 years straight and then she gets into Nursing School on her first attempt and dove right into it with no break. She just completely wore herself out mentally. I told her that this break she's having now, she truly needed it and it's been doing great for her. She got her old job back and has made so many friends. Right now she's completely in love with some guy from her work, but dealing with that because they're not dating. She's just really into him but he doesn't seem to feel the same way about her. So she's dealing with that now, but as for everything else, she's much happier. She doesn't have to come home and hit the books. Now she comes home, cooks some food and lays on the couch to watch her shows. She's started to exercise again and she's a much happier person. She's building herself back up to hit Nursing School again when the time is right. That's what 'Fyrescape' has always been about. Making yourself better, despite all the shortcomings in life. She's been on the journey just as I have. So we have never stopped and to this day, it's just been getting better and better with each passing day.
So in closing, for me this blog will help me. I've been wanting to open it back up and get back to writing. I'm starting to exercise today, but this time I don't think I'll be keeping a daily blog of everything I do. That's just been too much hassle. On occasion I'll write, but it'll probably be on my original 'Fyrescape' blog. I'm going to continue on there and just keep going. This blog here is for my personal thoughts and things I'd love to record from the day's happenings, whichever day that may be. So many things happen in my everyday that I'd love to keep a record of and what better way to do that then with a blog. Anyway, it's been Awesome and the Journey to Excellence continues everyday.
-Fyre 3/31/2017
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